Sunday, April 29, 2012

i might lost him in future...

sigh!
i maybe gonna live without him next time,
he maybe will not work at penang next time,
i gonna start to be independent
i cant depend on him too much le...
='(

he teach me how to use washing machine today
since i never use it before
and always keep saying he is here i no need learn how to use it
but,
i have to learn it from today...

he ask me,
if he is not working at penang then me how
i said,
i dunwan to hear, stop telling it to me
and on the way to home,
i feel like wanna cry out....

yet,
i tahan it,
i have to be stronger and inpendent isnt it?
i cant cry...

he said,
maybe i will forget to eat,
maybe i will not wash my clothes...

ya,
i think this is my life without him,
cant seriously have a schedule life...
it sound so bad and so geli isnt it?
so,
i think it is the time to be independent and be stronger...
='(


bad things just pls stop happen on me!

recently feel so unlucky and so stress...
no test no exam recently,
but a thesis enuf to cover all the stress of test or exam seriously...
or maybe is my laziness which cause it...
start the thesis results and discussion part,
it is damn hard to observe and explained the weird result we get...
if this sem i cnt score well,
seriously im one step away from my dream,
i will cry die for it...
i must hardworking but i no such motivation recently...
heart really so heavy and like cant relax for this two weeks...
haiz...
give me some good things happen on me can or not?
at least make me happy and have mood to keep on my study...
please...
=(

Sunday, April 22, 2012

心疼我爸

伤心,
有些东西别人看到好像很风光似的,
但其实虚有其表。

我爸,
有很多工做
可是却请不到工人
工人做没几天就走人
一点责任心也没有
一天到晚看他忙请人就够了
为他心疼
这么老了
还要这么劳累
少工人
唯有事事亲力亲为
做老板都做到这么辛苦
天又要玩他~
*这件事懒惰讲了*
几时才愿意停止作弄他啊老天爷!
给他请个长工不行吗?
嘿~
乌云最近总是爱围绕着我!

不满意

最近对自己越来越不满意
很失败
从外表到内在真的永远只会退步!

外表,
从来攀不上美
可是现在却绝对称的"丑"!
比起以前,
又肥了
脸又黑了
暗疮又多了!

内在,
觉得自己越来越笨
去上个talk没听书
最后考试
整个不会做
又只有我这么好运可以去而已
没有朋友答案好抄!
整个崩溃!
不要告诉我我用了两天16个小时做坐在那边却为了这短短5分钟没有了证书!
Thesis又这么久没碰了
整个人简直就是懒!

可不可以给些事情来个给我开心下有回点信心啊!
乌~